My Meditation Experience [390+Days] What You Can Learn?

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My meditation experience started with the need to become calmer.

I needed to get a lid on my emotions.

Short fuse has brought me more problems than I care to count.

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I react before I think. Some people say you should count to 10 before you say or do something. I have never got that idea. I could never catch myself before the explosion. I can count to 10, but later.

I understood I had a problem, but I had no clue what to do about it. Through popular science and self-help books, I somehow drifted to meditation.

On the surface, mediation seems like a futile exercise. But many credible sources showed that meditation should help with self-control and willpower. So, I decided to get the meditation experience.

I’m fairly good at grinding. I decided to meditate for 30 days.

Next step: If you haven’t tried meditation, then do it for 30 days.

Meditation experience day 1

On the first day, I sat down on the couch and stared at the wall for 5 minutes. For whatever reason, I felt that 20-minute meditation sessions would be a good thing. The idea was to add one minute to the meditation session every day. Then in two weeks I would meditate 20 minutes every time until the end of the 30-day meditation challenge.

Tip: Don’t overdo it. Start with a 5-minute session and then increase the time by one minute every day for as long as you want.

meditation experience quote

You should sit in meditation for 20 minutes a day. Unless you’re too busy; then you should sit one hour. ~ Zen Saying

Meditating position

Right from the beginning, I dismissed the idea of sitting in an awkward position for meditation. I figured that focusing on my thoughts would be hard enough without focusing on my body.

I’m quite sure a relaxed and comfortable posture is best for your meditation experience. However, I get it that when you become better at meditating, then adding the posture as an additional thing to control and notice would help. It’s like adding weight at the gym when you get stronger.

Don’t put 500 pounds on the bar on day one.

Do it later.

Supernatural was another thing I dropped from my meditation experience. Reincarnation, different planes of existence… I’m saying no at the moment.

Laying down in bed

As I try to time most of my meditation just after I wake up, then I do it in bed, laying down.

The best position for me is flat on my back with limbs slightly apart so they don’t touch each other. It’s a bit like floating in an isolation tank.

Meditation may put a very special impression on your face, very different from sleeping. Sometimes when I do it my wife is next to me. She calls it playing dead.

Tip: For your first meditation sessions, assume the most comfortable position you can find.

Breathing and focus

In a day or two, I noticed that it’s hard for me to focus on the blank wall. I found a small red dot and put it on the wall to avoid wandering with my eyes.

From the very start I tried the silent mind meditation. I felt that if I try to silence the chatter in my head with adding a mantra or some other thing to focus on would not make much sense.

Again, the weightlifting example comes in handy. In the beginning, you might need something to focus on. Breath in, breath out… And I did it. I figured I will focus less on breathing as I progress through my challenge.

Breathing itself became a distraction. It’s interesting to notice your breathing as something distracting your complete silence of thought. I felt that breathing becomes something you have to consciously do and think about.

In the beginning I used the in, out, in, out, mantra. Somehow it didn’t seem right. If the goal is cessation of all chatter in your mind, then in-out is a thought.

Now, after almost 400 days of meditation, I have still sometimes focus on breathing, but it has become more of a feeling than a thought.

Tip: In the beginning, focus on your breathing.

Falling asleep

I rarely fall asleep while meditating, but it happens.

It’s blindingly obvious, but I will say it, anyway. You will fall asleep when you are tired. It can happen at any time of day. In my meditation experience, I fall asleep in the morning when I didn’t get enough shut eye or in the evening when I’m exhausted.

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Meditation is important, so I rarely leave it until just before bedtime. Meditation is hard and doing it after all the energy spent during the day doesn’t seem optimal. For some people, meditation just before bed may help to wind down and get a better sleep.

In the morning I wake without an alarm, but even then, I sometimes wake before I should. If I meditate in this situation, then I might fall asleep again.

During the day, I’m usually so active that I can’t fall asleep even if I want to take a nap. In rare cases when I’m exhausted, I try to time the meditation so I stay awake.

Tip: Plan your sessions so you still have enough energy for mediation without falling asleep.

Eyes open or closed

I sometimes meditate with my eyes open and sometimes they are closed. Whenever possible, I try to meditate first thing in the morning. Even before I get out of the bed. Right after waking up it’s easier for me to keep my eyes closed.

If I meditate later in the day, then I meditate eyes open. As I noted above, I usually stare at the wall or some other object in the room.

I don’t have any difference in meditation with eyes open or closed in a calm environment. However, it there’s movement in your field of vision then it would be better to meditate with your eyes closed. For example, on the airplane or sitting in a reception room.

If you feel that sitting in a public place with your eyes closed is weird, then you can leave your eyes open. Consider the distracting movements as an extra tough workout for your mind.

Tip: Experiment, what works for you. If you feel that eyes open is too distracting for you, just close them during the session.

Sounds in the environment

sony 1000xm4 You can close your eyes, but not the ears. I find unexpected sudden noises more distracting than movement in my field of vision. If at all possible, I try to meditate in a quiet room.

Alternatively, there could be noise, indistinct sounds from the street or people talking so you can’t make out the words. These sounds are usually OK. The distinct sounds you can focus on are the true distractions.

I said you can’t close your ears, but you can block the sounds. The best option would be noise canceling headphones. I use Sony 1000XM2 headphones. I’m a big fan of this tech and will get myself new ones as soon as the 1000XM4 model comes out.

Before I had noise canceling headphones, I played white noise in regular headphones. There are apps and websites that let you choose what type of noise you like and play your favorite kind for as long as you need. I even used noise for the entire day when working in a distracting office.

Tip: When you are starting out with meditation, try to find a quiet place for your sessions.

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Meditation and concentration are the way to a life of serenity. ~ Baba Ram Dass

Guided meditation

When I started meditating, I was doing a lot of research about the topic. This led me to guided meditation. So, I figured I’ll give it a go.

Guided meditation is much easier than trying to focus on silence on your own.

So, I stopped doing it.


I think guided meditation is like listening to a radio or a podcast. Sure, it may be less intense and direct you to focus on your body and mind, but it’s still chatter. You should definitely do it in the beginning. Later, as you get better and more in control of your mind, I would suggest moving on to silence.

Guided meditation helped me focus better by noticing when I slip into my thoughts. When you are listening to your guide, it’s easier to catch yourself not listening as you start your internal self-talk.

Tip: Experiment with both guided and silent meditation.

Some notes about my meditation experience

You should probably get a live human coach. A mentor of sorts would let you discuss your experiences and make faster progress.

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Willingness is a technique where you accept the shortcomings and observe yourself from a distance as a third person. This helps you become calmer and understand what’s going on in your head. Looking at yourself as a third person also lets you have a more objective view of the situation.

Mindfulness escaped me for a long time. I think I’m getting better, but I’m still confused. What comes first? Do you have to be mindful for meditation, or should you meditate to become mindful? I think mindfulness is the more active form of meditation that you can weave into your daily life. Notice what’s happening around you, what are you feeling, and how you react to it.

For example, about the same time I started meditating regularly, I also started a no swearing challenge. To avoid swearing, you have to be mindful of how you speak. The rules of the challenge meant that I had to give 5 euros to anyone who pointed out to me I was using foul language. In the beginning, I paid out dozens of dollars every day. Then I became more mindful until I didn’t use strong words anymore.

Then I changed the rules so that when I caught myself thinking in strong words, I put 5 euros in a swear jar. Now, I don’t even think in words that could be considered swearing.

In total, it took me about half a year to get to this point. I think meditation and mindfulness were a big part of achieving the result. However, the challenge also helped to improve mindfulness and meditation.

Tip: Find one specific thing to be mindful about. Later you can expand your mindfulness.

Calmness. Becoming a calmer, less reactive person is one goal for my meditation exercise. As Zen-people say, don’t react, respond. With my meditation experience, I feel I have become calmer and less explosive over the last year. I still explode more often than I would like, but I think I have made progress.

I didn’t think about measuring the initial situation, so I don’t know if objectively I have become calmer. I hope I have.

Smiling. Sometimes I put a big smile on my face when I meditate. Some research shows you will become happier just forcing the smile on your face. So, I figured why not try it while meditating. I’m not rigorous about smiling, but every now and then I remember to do it. I don’t know if it has any positive effect, but I think it wouldn’t hurt either.

Tensing up during the meditation session. Sometimes I notice that my legs or shoulders have become rigid during my meditation session. Similar to the tension you might have when intently focusing on something. I just notice it and go back to being limp. This is where laying down helps as you can be totally relaxed in all muscle groups.

Tip: Even if you don’t scan your body, when you feel tensing up, relax your muscles.

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Meditation is the secret of all growth in spiritual life and knowledge. ~ James Allen


What results? When I started, I didn’t take measurements.

What is there to measure?

Also, scientific studies with one participant are not the gold standard I would really trust.

There’s no blind, randomly controlled B test for my meditation experience.

Subjectively I feel that I’m calmer now and maybe a bit less of a jerk, but I can’t prove it.

The main thing that bugs me is the 120 hours of time that goes into meditating 20 minutes every day for a year. It’s amazing how much stuff you could get done in 120 hours. Now, I just sit there and do nothing.

Still, I will continue to meditate and experiment with various ways of doing it.

Meditation makes me feel subjectively happier.

That’s all you can ask for.

Next step: Start now with a 5-minute meditation session.

There’s some evidence that meditation may help with chronic lower back pain.

Meditation quotes

Your goal is not to battle with the mind, but to witness the mind. ~ Swami Muktananda

Rule your mind or it will rule you. ~ Buddha

The thing about meditation is: You become more and more you. ~ David Lynch

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